On Thursday’s episode of The Doctors, former actuality star Vienna Girardi opened up about dropping her twin daughters in August, lower than per week after sharing that they have been women with family and friends.
“I discovered about six months in the past that I used to be pregnant — I couldn’t wait to be a mother. At eight weeks I acquired one other shock — that I used to be having twins,” Girardi, 31, stated, earlier than including that together with that comfortable information, she was additionally informed that “there is a rare condition that they can get in the uterus called twin-to-twin transfusion syndrome,” which is when one twin takes extra vitamins than the opposite.
But regardless of the warning, Girardi stated that “every ultrasound came out pretty good.”
“I was going into my 5th month and we thought we were in the clear. I started getting my nursery together and I had a gender reveal party and I picked out their names. Then a week later I was sitting on my couch and my water broke,” she continued. “I immediately called 911 and I remembered just crying saying, ‘I know my babies can’t survive at 18 weeks.’ ”
Although the docs prompt inducing labor, Girardi refused as a result of she “wanted to try and save them,” however “after a few days I went into septic shock [and] I couldn’t feel them anymore.”
And after getting an ultrasound, Girardi discovered their hearts have been now not beating.
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“Two weeks after I made the announcement of my gender reveal, I had to then announce I had lost the babies,” Girardi continued.
In August, The Bachelor alum shared the unhappy information along with her Facebook followers that her daughters “went to Heaven on Aug 5th” at 18 weeks.
“On Aug 3rd, I went in for an ultra sound bc the Perinatologist notice one of my twins had more fluids than the other which was the first sign of TTTS (Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome) this is when one twin takes more nutrients than the other,” she wrote. “They said that it did look like it had improved over the last week though.”
“Unfortunately, that was not the case and that evening my water broke due to the amniotic sacs rupturing,” continued Girardi on the time. “I spent the next 2 days in the hospital trying everything to save them.”
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And based on a press release from her rep on the time, Girardi herself practically misplaced her life too.
“On the second day in the hospital, she went into septic shock with a fever of 104 degrees,” he stated. “She was rushed into the OR and spent four days in the ICU. She almost died.”
“The doctors did everything they could to save the babies and said there was a 5 percent chance they would survive,” her rep continued. “Her little twins’ hearts stopped beating and joined the angels in heaven on Aug. 5. Vienna has a long and arduous journey to recovery, yet she is strong and knows her children are at rest in heaven.”
Speaking about the opportunity of dropping her daughter on the identical day as her granddaughters, Girardi’s mom tells The Doctors, “It was very heartbreaking … [it] was the worst experience.”
“For the most part, I try my hardest not to think about it, but every day I get in the elevator and there’s a lady in my building who’s pregnant and I stare at her belly the entire elevator ride up. Every time I hold my goddaughter or hold my niece, I don’t wanna let them go,” Girardi added. “I’m trying so hard to move past it, but it just seems impossible to stop thinking about it.”
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“The scariest part is after you have a miscarriage, you start thinking, ‘Am I never gonna be able to have kids again?’ ” Girardi continued, including that earlier than she went into surgical procedure, she’d been informed by docs she may not be capable of conceive sooner or later.
But there’s a silver lining: Girardi reveals on the present that her docs informed her that she would be capable of get pregnant once more.
As quickly as she awoke from surgical procedure, Girardi says one of many first issues she remembered was asking her mother, “Am I gonna be able to get pregnant again?”
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“And she looked at me and said, ‘Yes,’ ” Girardi continues. “She said, ‘The doctors say everything went smoothly and you will be able to get pregnant.’ ”
Shortly earlier than the episode aired, Girardi shared an Instagram collage from the taping and wrote, “I appreciate all your support and all the prayers over the few months #twinangelbabies”