The Ohio mother of three who made headlines in August after posing with 20,000 bees on her stomach in a surprising maternity shoot has suffered a stillbirth.
“Yesterday evening we had to hand over our precious child and say goodbye to his physical body forever,” Emily Mueller, 33, wrote in a heartbreaking Facebook put up on Monday, including that she and her husband, Ryan Mueller, 37, named their late son Emersyn Jacob.
“Our baby has died. Our baby will never come home with us,” she continued. “This fantastic rainbow child we have been blessed with has now turn into a storm in our lives.
“Finding out your baby died is unfathomable. Learning you have to be induced and deliver your deceased child is way beyond that. My heart instantly ached for any woman that has told me she had a stillborn.”
Emily, who has three different kids — Cadyn, 10, Madelynn, three, and Westyn, 1 — stated she was making ready for an upcoming occasion on Thursday and didn’t discover her child’s lack of motion.
“By evening I began to realize I had not felt baby move much and had contractions that felt different than any I have had before,” she wrote. “I just told myself he was sleeping but as the time pbaded, I felt uneasy about it.”
She and her husband determined to go to the hospital to test for a heartbeat, and sadly realized that their son had died simply days earlier than the due date.
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“I truly thought we would be sent home with a smile, telling us to just wait for the arrival of our sweet Emersyn, who was due in 6 days,” she wrote.
“I can’t and don’t want to explain that feeling to anyone. Turning to your husband and seeing him die inside. Seeing him completely break. Seeing your children feel and suffer your pain in front of your eyes. The pain is unbearable.”
Emily, a beekeeper and proprietor of Mueller Honey Bee and Rescue, first received into beekeeping as a method to cope after struggling a number of miscarriages.
“Bees represent the beginning of new life and after my second miscarriage, I needed a new release,” she instructed PEOPLE in September. “I connected with the bees and it helped take my mind off of other hardships that were surrounding me at the time, some people do yoga… I do bees.”
During the summer time, she ran her distinctive maternity picture concept by her midwife and pure physician previous to capturing.
“I’ve never responded poorly to stings, so I felt comfortable doing this,” she stated. “Everyone I asked said there’s no research to show how a bee sting affects a fetus.”
The Muellers have been completely delighted with the pictures.
“It was such a spiritual journey,” Emily stated, including that she was stung 4 occasions throughout the shoot. “They are everything I wanted and just represent our family so accurately.”
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Mueller says she believes her child died from a blood clotting problem that has induced different members of the family to endure miscarriages.
“I have a very strong feeling that this was a blood clotting issue as those traits have been affecting our immediate family for some time,” she wrote.
She and her husband determined to ship the placenta in for testing, however they’re ready for the likelihood that they more than likely won’t ever know the reason for their child’s demise.
Just days after the tragedy, the couple says they’re grateful for the supportive neighborhood round them.
“You could not deny he was loved by so many people and we continue to see this through the outpour of love and support you all are providing,” she wrote. “Just knowing people are thinking about us and hurting with us relieves so much of our own pain.”