McKayla Maroney's letters to the presiding judge of Dr. Larry Nassar's case, along with those of his mother, detail years of sexual abuse that changed the woman he became.
McKayla and Erin Maroney sent the revealing letters Judge read in private, instead of McKayla making his planned appearance in the court of Grand Rapids, Mich. on Thursday to testify against Nassar, the former US gymnastics doctor. UU who says he abused her under the guise of medical treatment for six years.
This experience has shattered McKayla, "Erin Maroney wrote of her daughter, a member of the women's gymnastics team that won the gold medal at the 2012 Olympics and one of the more than 140 women who accused Nassar of sexual abuse in letters obtained by ESPN.  "It has been transformed from a bubbly, positive, loving and world-class athlete into a young adult who was deeply depressed, sometimes suicidal. Sometimes, he was not sure if he was going to open the door of his room and find her dead. "
Maroney's parents are still obsessed by the times when McKayla was supposed to be under the protection of USA Gymnastics and their coaches, and yet it was not supervised, giving Nassar easy access to perform his pseudo-treatments with her. Erin and her husband were told they could not stay with their daughter in competitions abroad or at Karyoli Ranch, the US team training center in Huntsville, Texas, named after Bela and Marta Karyoli, where McKayla says Nassar abused of her for the first time.
A particularly disturbing incident, described in each of his letters, occurred during the 2011 world championships in Tokyo when McKayla Maroney was 15 years old. He remembers having awakened from the team's flight, in which Nassar had given him a sleeping pill and to wake up naked in the doctor's hotel room.
"I learned a few weeks ago from my daughter that at the Tokyo World Championships, [Nassar] drugged her, made her naked on a treatment table, sat astride her and digitally penetrated her while rubbing her erect penis against her, "wrote Erin Maroney. "She was only 15. She told me:" Mom, I thought I was going to die "
" I can not tell you the anguish Dad and I feel and the responsibility we feel for not being aware of this or not being able to stop it "
McKayla Maroney, who is now 21 and retired from the sport for more than a year, said Nassar – who also worked in the state of Michigan for decades and has been accused of sexually abusing former student athletes there – he "tried" before her and the "Fierce Five" won his gold team and before he won silver in the vault of London.