A mother in Manitoba shares her difficult story about postpartum depression in hopes of raising awareness and helping others.
It's hard for her to understand now, but the mother of two Sharon Loewen, 34, began preparing to leave her family when she experienced postpartum depression three years ago.
Loewen said her perspective turned dark after the birth of her second son Camden.
She begged her husband, Kelly, to stay awake with her in the night and cried during the day. Later, she was consumed with thoughts that her family would be better off without her.
"I started thinking I could run away, I was trying to accumulate a supply of frozen breast milk and I started thinking about my son's head," said Loewen, who is now a volunteer with the Manitoba Postpartum Depression Association. .
"Even if you have a mental illness, your main concern is your children and that's all I thought about, and you've just started getting lost in the world that you need me but I can not survive like this," Loewen said.
After calling her husband back home from work several times, he took a break and spent the next four months on his side.
"It was the only thing that went through my mind and I think the decision to take a break from work did not end up being a decision, we tried to cut this in the back, support it and take care of my family," he said.
Advocates say that it helps patients to be around other people. The Postpartum Depression Association of Manitoba wants to see a central center established for mothers with psychiatric services and various supports.
"Usually when you have postpartum depression you do not want to go anywhere, you isolate yourself," said the co-director. founder Nellie Kennedy, who also experienced the disease.
Today, Loewen said he has an excellent relationship with his son Camden and works full time.
He said he finally received help after a woman at a lactation clinic noticed he was suffering, and then went to see his doctor.
She said that the time her husband spent at her side saved her.
"This is something that happens to you, it's a chemical imbalance as a result of having a child, it was not because of what it was before I had children or because of something I did wrong during my pregnancy or after. feel guilty, "Loewen said.
SYMPTOMS AND SUPPORTS  The Association of Mood Disorders of Manitoba says that up to 80 percent of new moms experience melancholy. This may include episodes of crying or mood swings, which tend to disappear in one or two weeks.
It is said that when symptoms interfere with the mother's ability to care for her baby and perform other tasks, it is known as postpartum depression. 19659002] The association offers a direct support group for moms, dads and partners on the third Wednesday of each month. Also running a hot line & # 39; seven days a week from 9 a.m. to 9 p.m.
The Winnipeg Regional Health Authority has a 24-hour mobile crisis service that people can call. People can also visit the WRHA Crisis Response Center, located at 817 Bannatyne Ave.