The first half of Demi Lovato’s new documentary series “Dancing With the Devil” has appeared on YouTube and features the singer speaking candidly about why she didn’t think she would overdose in 2018 despite mixing various types of drugs. .
The four-part series, which details Lovato’s journey to and after her near-fatal overdose of 2018, has long been anticipated and anticipates the singer’s first album since 2017, “Dancing With the Devil … The Art of Beginning Over, “which is scheduled to be released on April 2.
Over the course of the two 20-minute episodes, Lovato explained how she “crossed a line that she had never crossed in the world of addiction” and that when she initially relapsed after spending many years sober, she “just went to town.” .
“I took drugs that I had never taken before. Never used methamphetamine before, tried methamphetamine. I mixed it with molly, with coke, marijuana, alcohol, OxyContin. That alone should have killed me, ”he said in the first episode.
The 28-year-old said she had started using heroin and crack cocaine recreationally after trying them when a dealer did not have her usual preferred combination of cocaine and Xanax. Her addiction to both drugs got so bad, she said, that she was a heavy user of both after her Tell Me You Love Me tour and that she even once interrupted a game night to take the drugs quietly in a friend’s bathroom.
The night of her overdose in July 2018, Lovato had been hanging out with friends and told them that she would go to bed when they left. In fact, she called her distributor and said that they now gave her what she assumes “is fentanyl”, calling them “aftermarket pills.”
After the overdose, Lovato said, she woke up in the hospital “shocked” because she thought you could only overdose by injecting the drugs.
“I’m not saying I haven’t used needles, but that night I wasn’t injecting it, I was smoking it. That’s another reason why I was so shocked when I woke up in the hospital because I was like, ‘No, I’m not injecting it. I can’t overdose on that, ‘”he said on camera at one point, then added that he learned:“ At the end of the day, if you do too much of anything, it will kill you. ”
Lovato said she knew she needed help at the time.
In the second episode, the “Anyone” singer talks a bit about the fact that the dealer took advantage of her and gave her the drugs that she eventually overdosed on just before the overdose.
“I didn’t just overdose. They also took advantage of me … When they found me, I was naked, I was blue. They literally left me for dead after he took advantage of me. And when I woke up in the hospital, they asked me if I had consensual sex. There was a flash I had of him on top of me. I saw that flash and I said, ‘Yes.’ It really wasn’t until a month after the overdose that I realized, ‘Hey, you weren’t in any frame of mind to make a consensual decision.’ That kind of trauma doesn’t go away overnight, “he shared, adding,” A lot of my past traumas came to a head that night. “
The next two episodes of the documentary series are scheduled for release over the next two weeks.
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