Demi Lovato says the recent DMX overdose is giving her “survivor’s guilt” after she nearly died in 2018 from drugs.
The 50-year-old “X Gon ‘Give It to Ya” rapper has been on life support and in a “vegetative state” since last week after overdosing on drugs and suffering a heart attack.
“Every time I see someone overloaded or pass away in the public eye, I immediately think, ‘It could have been you if you hadn’t been putting all this work in in the last years of your life,’” Lovato says in an interview. with “TMZ Live” airing on Wednesday.
“There are times when I’ve felt, like, feeling the guilt of a survivor. You ask yourself: “Why am I still here? Why aren’t others?” It is challenging. I have to realize that every day is a day that someone else does not receive. “
The “Dancing With the Devil” singer, who overdosed in July 2018 after smoking heroin and also ingesting oxycodone mixed with fentanyl, now counts her blessings “every day that I am here on this earth.”
“It makes me want to live the best life possible knowing that others didn’t get the chance,” she says.
Hundreds of people showed up Tuesday for a prayer vigil for DMX, real name Earl Simmons, at White Plains Hospital. Some of his 15 children were among the authorized visitors inside the UCI to say their “final goodbye.”
“We ask that you please keep Earl / DMX and us in your thoughts, wishes and prayers, as well as respect our privacy as we face these challenges,” the family said in a statement to People.
In 2016, DMX suffered a near-fatal overdose in a Westchester hotel parking lot, where doctors gave him Narcan to save his life.