Demi Lovato claims she was sexually assaulted and “left for dead” by the dealer who handed her a dangerous cocktail of heroin and other drugs the night she suffered a near-fatal overdose three years ago.
The “Heart Attack” singer recalls how she was forced to face what happened when she woke up in the hospital after the incident and was asked by doctors if she had had consensual sex.
“I remembered him lying on top of me, so I said, ‘yeah,'” Lovato says on her YouTube docuseries, “Dancing With the Devil.”
She says she soon realized, however, that due to her highly intoxicated state on the night of the near-tragedy in July 2018, she hadn’t been in a position to access sex.
“It wasn’t until maybe a month after my overdose that I realized, ‘Hey, you weren’t in the mood to make a consensual decision,’” she recalls. “That kind of trauma doesn’t go away overnight.”
Lovato, 28, admits that after her overdose she relapsed again.
“I wish I could say that the last night I touched heroin was the night of my overdose, but it wasn’t like that,” he says, explaining that he wanted to “regain power” from his drug dealer, whom he didn’t. t name, after he allegedly assaulted her.
“He wanted to rewrite his decision to rape me,” he explains. “I wanted him to be my choice now, and he also had something that I wanted, which was drugs. I ended up getting high. “
As part of a misguided plan to regain “power” after an intensive week-long trauma retreat, she even called the dealer who attacked her and said, “I’m going to screw you.”
Lovato says she regretted doing that as she realized that after her relapse she had hit rock bottom.
“I thought, ‘How did I pick up the same medications that brought me to the hospital?’ “I was kind of mortified by my decisions.”
Now sober from the drugs that landed her in the hospital, Lovato says in the documentary series, and in a cover story for Elle’s March issue, she doesn’t completely restrict herself to marijuana or alcohol.
“I learned that closing the door on things makes me want to open the door even more,” he says. “I know I’m done with the things that are going to kill me … but I wish I could get some relief maybe through the grass or something right?”